Confused Emotions

My emotions are running between fear, anger, anxiety, and depression, with a little bit of hope about the election. I'm fearful and anxious when I think about what might lie ahead if Kerry is elected. I'm scared of waking up on November 3 and hearing the words "President-elect Kerry". I'm depressed when I think of the millions of voters who might actually elect this pompous, arrogant, spinless, European-loving, uber-liberal as POTUS. I'm angry, no, beyond angry, when I think of the lengths to which the Democratic Party seems willing to go win this election. They have only one issue now - winning. And doing whatever it takes to win.

I am hopeful, however, when I read blogs and listen to talk shows. Sure, I read the ones I agree with and listen to shows I agree with. I don't have the stomach or fortitude to venture into territory I disagree with. I am a recovering Democrat after all. I won't fall back into those dark days, but, it raises my blood pressure and depresses me so much to think that people actually think the government should take care of them. They don't want to think for themselves. They think they are "entitled" to everything. They don't want to work and earn anything. They want it handed to them. And that makes me sad, and a little bit mad.

My husband picked me up at work this afternoon. On the way home, we were listening to Sean Hannity. I mentioned that I was afraid that Kerry might actually win the election. There are so many people who have actually bought into his rhetoric because he tells them what they want to hear. My husband reassured me by saying that he believed that the voters would re-elect President Bush. His words reminded me that we live in a country full of good, decent, law-abiding people who generally comprise the silent majority. We may hear of the bullies and thugs, and the lazy sheep who don't want to think for themselves, but they are in the minority. And my depression begins to lift a little.

I've apparently been good influence on him. I realized this when he said that he had always believed in the ideals of the Democratic Party. But, since he started paying more attention, and educating himself, he realizes that he was wrong. What he believes in are not what the Dems now believe. We discussed how the Republican Party has evolved into what the Democratic Party used to be and how the Dems have evolved into what the Socialists (here is the definition of Socialist) used to be. And by the way, neither of us are registered Republicans. He is Libertarian and I registered as an Independent.

I am not saying that the Republican Party is "right" and the Democratic Party is "wrong". I am saying they are different from what they used to be. That's one reason why Zell Miller is so angry at his party and why he spoke at the Republican convention. Zell has said he would die a Democrat. I'm sorry about that. I understand what he's saying, but at the same time, I wish he could move to the party that espouses what he believes in.

I posted recently on the fear and intimidation tactics that are being used on behalf of the Democratic Party. I'm not saying that the Dems are encouraging these tactics, but I sincerely doubt that anyone behind the scenes is doing much to stop it either. It will take the good, decent people of the Democratic Party to say "Enough!" and put a stop to it. I know better than to think all Dems think that using bullies and thugs is a good idea. I'm sure Zell Miller is against it and I'm also sure that there are more like him than not.

I've said it before, and I'll continue to say it: it is all about character. Something the Democratic Party in general seems to be sorely lacking.